I Love You

Wednesday, December 23, 2009 8:36 AM

You are the one i chose to love. So please don't let me regret my choice.

Today is veryveryveryvery tiring. x.x
Had tuition at 9.30, but teacher called to change it to 10.30. (Very idiortic, because he was the one who set it!) After tuition, Calv(surprisingly, it's him) called me to go out for a gettogether with cynthia nd co. Waited for half-an-hour(see this, you pig? you were late !!!! ):<) for Calv and took mrt to meet them @ bishan, then cabbed down to daryl's house for bbq preparations. Had a short 1724 meeting @ his house and had hella time drinking beer! (sadly, i'm the only one underaged but heck, i still got to drink it!) Went to coldstorage with esther and haojie because we realised we lost the charcoal! (it's all jiale's fault!). Got tortured by thousand finger jabs on my tummy by esther the monstahhhh ! Yes it's you, you monsterrrrr ! ):< . Met lydia at the supermarket (and esther was really surprised) and prissy too (: . Augustine dropped by afterwards, and the three of them headed back to campsite -jealous-. Felt very dizzy afterwards (SLEEP DEPRIVATION! ):) and took a short but long nap @ the sofa. <: . Woke up by a nightmare, then got ready to go down for bbq session! <: . Texted J_____ throughout the gettogether, and calvin almost saw it! ): . Spaiiiii! then we both struggled to get the phone and i accidentally pushed calv into the pool! X: sorrieeeeeeeeee! ate until i'm so bloated x.x but sat in a corner most of the time <: . Then clement came to pick calv up, and drop me home otw. (free ride, woohoo!) and now i'm relating it all in this post, to you! <: . Nightsall ~ <3

i love you, i do not know how to convince you that i truly, really, do love you.
won't you be my love?.

Unacceptance ,

3:09 AM

You son of a bitch.

A bastard just like the rest of them.

Fuck you __.

Unacceptance ,

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 6:13 PM

Empty heart, empty soul, lifeless.
Held alive by this last piece of string of agony and pain that surfaces out of my sanity and thoughts. When everything darkens, your sight, your hearings, your touch. You desperately find a last source of light, an escape. but all there is there, is more of the things you try to evade. You know, but yet you bet with the last of all your faith and hope that there will be salvation there.
But no.
There is no such thing called salvation, there is no such thing call acceptance.
because you know that it's graceful enough that you were allowed to let live. And that your existence itself never grants you any mercy, any hope. You have no place for dwelling, you have to move on no matter how much you want to stay. Even if you stay, the ending will still be the same. People leave, promising they will be there with you. Whats forever? There is no forever. No eternity. But you chose to believe in this ridiculous tale of forevers and eternity. Friendship, love, kinship. You name it.
And all you know for all you care,
you fall deeper.
You fell for him.
But he didn't catch you.
And neither did the person who promised to break your fall.

This is the feeling of heartbreak .

Unacceptance ,

Thursday, December 17, 2009 10:01 PM

A decision has been made.
Actions have been taken.
Changes are now unevitable.

<: .

Leaving fr shanghai next year, hoping that i will be able t fit in in my new school. International school sounds uber scary ;wild. Shanghai Singapore International School. Prolly has it's fair share of angmohs ! ;wild.

Let's hope it's a chance set for me, to start afresh as a new person <: .

Never forget you, I'll remember you .

Unacceptance ,

8:11 AM

Close your eyes and count to ten. The moment you open them, I will no longer be around, but remain as a part of your memory.

Goodnight .

Unacceptance ,